May 27, 2021

Dear Diary,

Another day closer to Saturday 😢

I asked him how long and he said he didn’t know but it could likely be a couple weeks. I broke down crying after that. He said he had to go and that he was sorry and I know he genuinely is sorry and has to go but it still isn’t fun when he is gone. I start over thinking everything and my anxiety goes up and I get easily depressed. 

He said I should go see Regina and not be alone so much. Which I’m sure he is right but I don’t really know her that well and it is always really difficult to talk to people I don’t know well. 

I went and had lunch with Kemper yesterday. They always close the shop for an hour for lunch. He was surprised and happy to see me. We had sex after lunch on their couch in the office. 

The whole place smells of cars, engine fluids, tires, etc. I suppose it would be strange if it didn’t. 

I was getting ready to go and he was sitting at the desk waiting to open the garage doors, and I asked how customers felt about that. I pointed behind him at a nude woman on a calendar. He laughed and said that no one has said anything before. His uncle picks out and buys the “office supplies.”

Kemper is at work again and I am going to try and busy myself with laundry.