Dear Diary,
Kemper said he will have to leave again on Saturday. He will be gone for awhile, not sure how long. He will keep in touch when he can though.
He is working now at the shop. He only works Monday-Friday there but he will work on weekends if someone is needing something done. Although club business, ALWAYS takes precedence.
What he does for them, I have no idea. He doesn't say and wouldn't say if I asked. It sometimes makes me wonder but I just try not to think about it as much as possible.
All in all, I am not looking forward to Saturday.
It still bothers me about what happened to Ryan and who it could be. I don't think I will ever be able to figure it out though. Ryan said they wore all black and ski masks.
I wish I could talk more to my friends. I just feel alone a lot and with Kemper leaving again it just brings my anxiety up again. He is going through a lot though and I know he probably just wants space right now so I will quit being selfish.
I am going to start reading the sequel to Watership Down tonight. The first one was so-so. I have read better children's stories.
Kemper and I woke up early and had sex. I wish he didn't have to work today. It would have been nice to just snuggle up and sleep some more.
His parents were nice people when I met them. They hadn't seen Kemper in awhile.
He said after they left that he made a promise to come down and see them this summer and that I would come along too. I haven't been to California in awhile, at least never stayed long. It would be nice to be able to travel with him again and have some more alone time together.
He keeps bugging me about finishing high school. I am not sure how to go about it without ID. I am worried if I ask mom to sign me up for an online high school that she would have me sent home or tell my dad where I am. Although she doesn't know where I am either. I just decided that when I was 18 I would make contact again and get my birth certificate so I could get a drivers license and get enrolled into school again. Lame probably but I don't want to go back to that detention center.
Our kitty, Bear, has been great to have around. He is quite the cuddle bug especially when it is time for bed.
Maybe I will go to the shop and have lunch with Kemper. I hope that helps with being lonely and dreading Saturday.