Dear Diary,
On June 1st marks the 5th month of me being single again. I don't know why it's so hard to move on from this person when I usually (in general) move on from anyone pretty easily. And because of that, I can't help but be reminiscent about almost everything that happened last year. I wish it would stop but my mind just won't shut up about him.
Like sometime around this month last year. I've been asking myself if I'm starting to genuinely care about this person and want to keep him in my life, not because he virtually made me c*m for a week straight and I'll be needing him because I can't get some real action (LMAO) but it was because of something else. He seems really into me, like, REALLY, that I thought it would crush his heart if I had to cut our communication if B and I started going out after the pandemic. But B and I were fighting a lot and this person was there for me. And I changed my mind and wanted to go out with this person instead. I thought I'd lose B first because of how much we used to fight but it was the other way around. And now B is still here but I don't like him that way.
It just baffles me how much a person can make you feel like you're his entire world one second, and then the next, he's gone, like he's never felt anything for you from the very beginning.