Dear Maya,
I have started my open diary today. I actually wanted this before I knew it existed. I never was great at keeping diary's primarily because I saw no point in explaining my day if nobody was going to read it anyway. I just want to tell someone about my day without people being too tired or not interested.
I just posted on reddit about wanting this. Someone replied saying they could see why. It was a really nice person so that made my day.
Today was sunday. For me, that means going to church. I have been a christian all my life and last year I got officially let into the commune. It happens when you apply for it and express your faith. It was really nice.
I recently started sharing my room with my little sister. She has depression and my middle sister wasn't helping a lot. I am really tidy and calm and my mom asked me to switch my single room for a bunkbed a few months ago. At first I didn't want to, because I have autism and change is hard. But after seeing the damage my lil sis is going through I finally adjusted. I am sorry to say so but sadly my middle sister is not the best person to live with if you're depressed. She had a bad influence because she has a chaotic lifestyle she wants to push onto lil sis. I don't condemn her for it because she is just 17 and can't help it. But I should've adjusted to the idea of changing rooms quicker. My lil sis has a really bad hygene because of depression and the influence of my middle sister. When we were cleaning the room in the switch we cleaned up her bed. She sleeps on top of the bunkbed and since we all change our own bed she hadn't done it in a while. She hoarded a lot of plastic bottles and molded food and even got adjusted to crumbs on her bed! It really saddened me. We cleaned her bed and I will review a decent showering schedule with her. (Mind you, she is 13.) And brushing her teeth and hair has been neglected too. It isn't that we don't pay attention to her. She just doesn't do it when we tell her to brush her teeth or shower. She has been having suicidal thoughts as well and has a therapist. I can't get rid of her depression but I can help her develop a better life style. Nothing to radical. Just your basic needs. I just got out of a bad period myself but I wasn't this bad. I really hope it helps, if even just a little.
Welp, I am going to end it with this. I have work at seven in the morning. I think this is the first diary entrance I actually wrote my heart out on. I usually can't get this personal. Maybe this will help me too. Have a great week to whomever reads this.
See you,
Reader91