April 23, 2021

 

Dear Diary,I wanted to update a bit its been few years since I wrote anything. Life is beautiful I got 2 beautiful daughters and a loving Husband. I can't ask for anything better. Three of my siblings got married. Life is beautiful but when everything was going smooth something big happened. It felt as if we got hit on the face with a truck. My youngest sister was expecting her first baby or should I say babies. Yeah she got pregnant with triplets. Twins run in our family but triplets was like WOW. We were over the moon. We were planing on how to announce her triplets. Should wo hide it and surprise everyone when the babies come, a lot was going on in our minds. She was out of the country with her husband. She went to see her doctor their who told her she lost one baby and her body was going to absorb that baby soon. My sister was devastated 😢 she really wanted her triplets but now it was only twins. After a week and half she came back to USA. My mom my other sister and I kept telling her to be strong and stay positive for the twins. It took a bit time but my sister accepted it as gods will. After a few days she made an appointment for ultrasound in the U.S. and decided to take me with her (her husband was out of the country and wasn't able to come for few months). On the day of appointment which was last week by the way, we went we were so happy and she keeping reminding me to take videos and pics of her babies so she can send them to her husband. Everything was looking good i was going to take a video of her but the ultrasound person told me that it was not allowed 🚫 and she would send pics and the video of the babies to the mother's cellphone. We thought fine whatever 🙄. Then out of no where the ultrasound tech/person asked us if we saw babies heartbeat at out last appointment. 😱 I knew something was wrong. My sister replied yes babies had a strong nice heartbeat. Then the ultrasound person. Said sorry I can ONLY hear ONE baby's heart beat. I see two sacs but he other baby is not breathing! Nd it looks like as if the baby died a few weeks ago may be couple days after your last appointment. My sister who was lying on the bed LOOKED at me she LOOKED at me with those eyes her brown eyes turned pink she looked at me like she was saying HOW? WHY? THIS CAN'T HAPPEN? I JUST LOST ONE BABY AND I WASN'T EVEN DONE GRIEVING. Her EYES were hopless she wanted to yell she wanted to SCREAM. she wanted to cry her heart out. I started crying but kept my mouth shut I was wearing a mask no-one could see my face but my eyes were showing water works as if someone left the tap open. I couldn't break eye contact with her. She kept loo ok ing at me and started crying 😢 I told her not to cry and that it was going to be okay. But then I thought to nyself No, it is not ok and it is not going to be okay. I told her it was okay if she wanted to cry and that she sould cry ifs a huge loss 💔. She cryed lightly then She cried badly 😢 It was really devastating. We both couldn't stop crying we huged each other as we cried. Ultrasound tech told my sister that the remaing baby looks healthy. My sister who was so emotional at the time said something that made me so emotional, she said " I went to my first appointment the doctor said you are having triplets and the babies look healthy. I went to my second appointment the doctor said I lost one baby but the other two look healthy. And this is my third appointment and you are telling me I lost my second baby too and that remaining baby looks healthy 🥺😢😫😭

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