April 17, 2021

Dear Diary,

  This journal is likely going to be such a blessing for me in the coming months. I am going to jail and I am going to be able to use the internet to keep this journal. It is actually a part of the  court-ordered requirements just like community service would be..

 In fact it is a form of community service. It wil be nice to be able to do this once a day. As far as I know I'll have an hour each day.I am to record my experiences, my thoughts each day and my feelings. while incarcerated. It is a privilege., That is not lost on the district attorney the assistant district attorney the judge I'm sure that it's not lost on  the staff of correctional officers at the detention center as well.

 I have worried myself sick over this jail time and I'm trying to look at this as a small way that will possibly ease my suffering a little.

 I can write about anything as long I have time. But I have to complete the primary purpose which is documenting my expereinces, thoughts and feelings related to being in jail. I know, doesn't sound too fun actually. I am sick to my stomach over it all.

Fortunately I have some time left before I report. Hope to get everything explained concerning  why I have to go.This is my first time ever in any trouble of any significance at all. And aside from the 3/2 days spent there after my arrest I've only spent half a day in jail my entire life and I'm in my mid to late 40s. 

Well I have to go for now but I'll be able to come and go as much as I want until I report to the detention center. Thank you for reading and I have a lot more to write about. I'm trying to keep a good attitude because I certainly am not feeling great.