Dear Diary, I always have a strange feelings everytime I by myself especially at night when I have nothing to do. I'm so confuse and intimidated at the same time. The feeling is not good cause it's a bad thing, not bad to some of people but to me and my beliefs, it's illegal and it's a sin. It happens to me many times but I hope I can forget about it and focus to other important things, yea it takes time! :)