Never get used to losing you
3/30/21
It takes me hours to fall asleep... My head is so busy all of the memories of you. I naturally wake up at 5 A.M. because I can't keep myself calm long enough to stay asleep. I prayed so hard last night that I would hear from you. I just need that one last conversation... I just need to meet you once. I can't believe all of this happened.
Maybe today will be the day I hear from you... Probably not but these words enter my mind constantly every day. I miss you I miss you I miss you... God this is so hard. I can't stop thinking about your voice. I love you so much.
"Maybe people who can't stay away from each other are meant to be together." I saw that quote online and want to send it to you so bad...
I'm wondering what you and your family will do for Easter. When Christmas passed by, you said you wished you could just grab your son and come be with me. You called me on Halloween while you and your son were walking around trick or treating... I wished I could be with you so bad.
Today was the first day in a week I actually didn't break down balling at some point. I listened to a bunch of music trying to convince myself that I'm over you. But now it's getting dark and I'm sitting at the senior center by your house forcing myself not to text you. I know you won't, but I still pray you do. My head is still back and forth between he has to still think about me and I never meant anything to him... I have to keep reminding myself that if you really wanted to be in my life in any way, you would be.Loading...