Waist-deep in thought
3/29/21
I remember when every song reminded me of you. Now I feel completely broken and lifeless. I don't sing to anything. I've completely detached from things... Movies, outings, work, nothing matters anymore. It's so hard to accept that you've let me go.I can't stop writing about you. I can't stop pushing out feelings and thoughts about you. At least doing this prevents me from pathetically texting you constantly with no replies...
I know what you're likely doing. You're proving to her that she's the one. That I was the mistake. That this meant nothing and she is your world and you'll never contact me again. My pain is proof to her that you never cared about me.
And I'm not even mad at you for it... That's the level of love I have for you... I know you so well that I can feel your pain and loneliness and misery even when we're not talking. And the thing that hurts the most is that I know the best thing I can do for you, the best way I can love you now, is to go away. Stop contacting you, stop trying to reconnect this... Because if that's what you wanted... You would do it... I need to let you go...
I love you I love you I love you... I'm writing it here so I don't text it to you, like we used to do so constantly.Loading...