Another no one 's Dear Diary

4/8/21I wish I could stop thinking about you. I don't... not for a single second. No one can replace you. I'll never forget what we had...

4/4/2021Happy Easter. I wish I could text you that this morning. I wish I knew how you and your family were doing. I wish I knew what you were doing today with your son... I'm going to my sisters today. The last time I was there was around Christmas.

4/1/21I sent you an email last night, saying goodbye. I haven't gotten a response yet. I pray I will...for closure. I don't believe in anything, but I've been doing that a lot lately... Praying. Because it's all I can do. I feel so helpless, so power

3/31/21Did I ever know the real you? The whole time we were talking... Were you acting? Did you create a man you knew I'd love and hide the parts you thought I wouldn't? What don't I know about you... I'll always wonder what was real and what wasn't.

3/30/21It takes me hours to fall asleep... My head is so busy all of the memories of you. I naturally wake up at 5 A.M. because I can't keep myself calm long enough to stay asleep. I prayed so hard last night that I would hear from you. I just need t

3/29/21I can't stop looking for you in others. Every Whisper message, every kind thing someone says to me, I think of you.I see old screen shots of random things on my phone and I see the new message icon at the top and I think about how it was from

3/29/21I remember when every song reminded me of you. Now I feel completely broken and lifeless. I don't sing to anything. I've completely detached from things... Movies, outings, work, nothing matters anymore. It's so hard to accept that you've let

3/29/21I'm at the senior center by your house again. This is the third time I've been here in two days. I've stayed away from your house. But at least being here, this close, it somehow makes me feel close to you.Every time I'm in Springfield, drivin

3/29/21This scene keeps replaying in my head. Everything that we built for 6 months is glass shattered on the floor. I'm crying and crawling all over the place, picking it up, trying to put it back together, even if it's cutting me, even if it hurts.

3/29/21 I don't know how long it's been that we've talked. Your last words to me were "Thanks for ruining my life. We are done forever". I hear them in my head constantly. I hear your voice saying my name in my head. All the loving and comforting th