Been wanting to write again to clear the mind or something. Discovered this site, thought I'd give it a try. I might forget about it again in a few days, when life becomes crazy again or procrastination creeps in. I keep on trying, multiple times, but as often as I try to get back on my feet, that's how often I also fail, miserably.
Self-loathing is a common theme in my life. I sometimes think it's kinda became a habit. But here I am again, trying to get my life back together, again. It's because I recognize how chaotic my life if, how messy my mind and surrounding is. In all these attempt to fix this chaos that is my life, I have seem to notice what's lacking: commitment. I recognize my problems: procrastination, mediocrity etc. To sum it up, I feel lost. Though I am not hopeless, I am unmotivated to do something about my situation.
Well, I'll try again. I'll write about it here. If this is my last entry in 30 days, then that means that I lost again.