Dear Diary,
Today I was talking with one of my colleagues, and he was discussing that he is lazy and doesn't feel good about it. Even I said the same, and then we discussed about vision and plan and stuffs. I don't know what happened after that, I studied 6 hours today. I took a nice bath and shaved my legs, I did some self care stuffs. Today was indeed a productive day after 2 months. I am feeling good.
Thanks to that guy. Thanks to God, you did listen to my prayers.
9:53am: woke up at 8:45, actually I couldn't sleep for till 1:30 as i was again feeling bad about AM. Well, I was thinking to end everything with him, he doesn't even do the bare minimum. But I feel like I can tolerate him. If not him, I don't feel good about arrange marriage. It's more like a compromise at this point. But should I really compromise from the start. Well, as I have waited a year for him, I just decided to wait for a month more and meet him in person and see if things look better.
11:55am: anyways I had a fight with AM today. When I listened to his point of view ,I realised my fault was there too. I don't understand him , then fight and then realise his issues and then I repent. The cycle is very repeatative.
Regards,
Anne