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Dear Diary,
I don't know what to say, I am in a rut.
A sent me a 🌹 today, just an emoji as it's rose Day today. I did wish him in return. I don't know I should have or should not have wished him. Because well I am not really sure about him. I have mixed feelings for him.
Well, we all have one life to live, and why am I wasting it away. Nothing, really nothing is helping me. I can't get myself to want to feel motivated. I try and think different things. But no results.
I have gained a lot of weight too, I don't look good.
I just hope, tomorrow is a better day.
12pm:- my childhood friend msged me saying, he loved me, he wanted to marry me, he wanted that I give him a chance, I didn't . I didn't choose him. But if I am happy, he is happy for me. I didn't know what to say, I don't feel for him, he is a really talented guy, he is gold medalist in international Olympiad, he has a patent in his name for a software he made. Basically he is super talented. But I am not attracted to him so, I didn't date him.
I sometimes feel lucky, that there are so many people who show interest in me and like me. But I ended up liking someone with whom I am not that happy either. I don't know with whom I will end up with, but I will be a great partner to that person. I am confident about it.