January 28, 2021

Dear Diary,

I get to talk to a state case worker today. I may or may not be coming home after this conversation with them. 

My dad is extremely upset about it all. I can't say much to him because what can I say? I did this to my family and there isn't anything I can say that will make it any better for anyone.

I feel this will be the day that I lose everything. Ian, my parents, my brother, even myself, if the state puts me in a facility.