Dear Diary, It's his birthday today God knows how much I want to talk to him and greet him on his special day. However, I don't want to be in his life anymore. I don't want to push myself to a guy who does not want me to be in his life anymore. So I will greet him here. Happiest birthday bub! I never thought being sure about someone would be this hard but thank you so much for the roller coaster ride. You're the reason for my happiness and pain. I don't regret a single thing I did with you. There's still a hope in me that someday we'll meet and fall in love again just like we did before. Remember when you asked me to visit the church? Funny how you prayed for me, for us that day but look at us now. Sad how that prayer and the picture of "US" slowly faded away. I think that's life. We don't know what the future brings. I'm ready to let you go now. I will love you from afar until the day comes that I can finally say your name, look at your picture, and look at you without my heart aching. See you on the funny paper, Until we meet again. I wish you all the best. I wish you genuine happiness. Once again, Happiest birthday, love.