Dear Diary, Seven months ago I was so decided that breaking up was the right thing to do and that I deserve so much better. There were so many red flags in our relationship but I was okay with them because I thought "if you really love them you have to stay no matter what happens". In some cases that is true but not to the point where you let the other person completely destroys you with their mean and sharp words, where the respect for each other slowly fades away. That's when I decided that the relationship is not healthy anymore. Where love is not enough to keep us going. Yes, I deserve so much better but seven months after the break and I realized he's my home. I tried getting him back but I failed because he is now focused and busy pursuing his dreams and I'm very proud of him. A month ago I was so mad and frustrated because of the pain and rejection I felt. But as I reflect on myself I realized that I was being selfish for not considering his feelings. Last time we talked with each other was the smoothest and calmest talk we had after the break up. No crying, no grudge, no assuming and all. I realized that I really love him and because of that I have to set him free. If he comes back then maybe its really meant to be and if not then it never is. The important thing is.... I found me. I found myself, I learned to focus and love myself. I learned not to control things and let fate decides.