Dear Diary,
I'm getting a kick out of this book. A vampire going back as mortal for two days, well almost two days and he hates it! Many blunders and about killing himself and oh, the person he switched with didn't come to the agreed upon meeting spot to switch back. (Imagine that?!)
I am done reading for now but it was comical to read his expressions and reactions to basic basic things. Like being cold or going to the bathroom.
I have done nothing today besides sleep and read. I feel worthless but I feel that way no matter what I do.
I have given up on Ryan. I know I say that now but, it is obvious that he wants nothing to do with me anymore. Must be nice to take everything and just leave.
Kemper is beyond sick of hearing about him. He has made it painfully clear he doesn't care for him at all. I understand why but he doesn't understand why I feel the way I do.
It is bitterly cold here. I am used to doing nothing but there is REALLY nothing to do here. I have seen what "one horse town" really means. Very small town and there is one horse in a corral. LOL, not joking either.
Kemper has been going to work when there is work but just not a lot for him at this time of year, I guess.
He also insists on a little celebration of some sort for my birthday. I told him no! He says that is ridiculous to not have some cake at least. He needs to understand my disdain for my birthday or this time of year.
He also said that I should call my parents and soon. I shook my head but I don't think I am going to be able to avoid that for much longer.
Kemper said I had to give him one good reason on why I don't want to talk to them and my reasons haven't been good enough to grant not talking to them.
Ian says I should call them too. I am not going to be pressured into this.
I do wish I could talk to Ian soon.
I was told today that I have experienced many lifetimes worth of misery, or something to that affect. (or is it effect?!) My brain is too tired for grammar right now.
I never looked at it that way. It has been hard at times but that is about it, at least that is how I feel.
Maybe I could be a vampire since I can experience lifetimes worth of pain. LOL joking! Vampires aren't real and no thanks anyway, who wants to live forever?! It sounds appealing sometimes but only because death doesn't sound pleasant.