Dear Diary,
My mom has been feeling a jolt of sharp pain from her stomach going through her lower back. She hasn't been eating and has been vomiting the very little amount she was taking in. Everytime I hear her attempting to throw up, I couldnt paint my expression. Im worried and everything I could possibly feel all at once.
This wasnt the first time this happened, this was happening for like, every two months, the duration of the pain being much longer than the last time. Ive been asking her if she wants to be rushed to the ER immediately and have her checked before she whimpers again in pain, but she tells me its just gas and stuff, i dont believe so. Shes been losing major weight in the past couple months as she hasnt been eating right.
She would often call me when its painful and id massage her abdomen (close to the diaphragm), and i could never admit this, but i swear i was feeling some lump. It was there the first time she was feeling the pain a couple of months ago, but now, it feels much bigger.
I never admitted to myself that I was touching on something that was possibly too serious, maybe i was too scared. Even if we bring her to the ER, we still cant afford a doctor or even have her laboratory checked. Also, the pandemic is still here, which makes it too much of a risk to be admitted in the hospital.
Im looking for health insurance that could help us out once i applied my mom. None of us in the family has insurance. It scares me, I only earn the bare minimum, and if ever we need finances I have no idea where to turn to. I am just hoping for the best.