Dear Diary,
I feel happy today, a good day. Not a lot of achievements, but in the end of the day i helped someone learn something.
Office is going decent. Life is going ok ok, times is just slipping like sand.
Mayur surprised me yesterday, with such calm tone, he just said, one thing i want to tell you, i am getting married. :o :o :o
Seriously ? I Couldn't believe it. I cant believe it. I mean, he is there just in front of me, and someday he says he is getting married... Everything changes, Now he is sort of man, i cannot scold him like i could until now. I think he is too young to be married... How will he manage a marriage, i cant imagine it...
Well, sometimes i look at these guys, mayur, surendra, raja etc, and i think of them as so young and think that they have so much to learn yet thinking that i have seen a lot in life or i am some wise guy who can teach them things.. =D But Then i think maybe its not true at all... Its me who is so immature and childlike yet.. Its me who is living in his dream world =D.
The time is slipping, i am not unhappy, but its just that i am still not sure of life, what am i going to do in the end ? Who will i be ? Will i be doing something more significant ? What i am doing is not bad... But i want to something even more. Here i am not able to focus on one thing, Looking after business, clients, managing people etc.. i dont like it much, i know i am learning things, but... I have a few people here working shoulder to shoulder with me. Maybe that's how it'll be everywhere i worked and this is a lesson for me.
And how about other things in life ? I mean, travelling, seeing foreign land, and a partner in life ? Will i always be running like this mad dog ? Is that all in life ?
Will i ever settle down ? I dont know if i want to...
Its all crazy, its like after all these years from college, i am still in the same place, where i was back in college, atleast that time i had more energy and nothing weighing me down..
Its little crazy, just to be clear, i am not sad or unhappy, i am just... just being clueless....
But i am writing all these, so one day, when i have found what i want to be, and i am not clueless anymore, i'll look back at these days and wonder what i went through to reach where i do...
Remind me after 3 years.
Good Night...