October 15, 2020

Dear Diary,

Am crying again today.

The same feeling like yesterday.

The feels of lonely, angry, sad, mad.

I dont have any friends or anywhere to go just to express how it feels like.

No one really listen. No one that actually really trusty. And thats why trust issue exist. People come and go, nothing really stay anyway, even my parents. And so, why do even I should share anyway.

I have a boyfriend but I feel like I can't trust him. The feels of "nah you're gonna go away anyway" its just there, and so I always want him to get off and cut him anytime.

I know that my anxiety has been my real friend since the beginning. So it is better to have it with rather that have nothing with.