If you are the hawk, how would explain your world above the clouds to the worm who's gaze is up beyond the soil?
And so Dear Diary, I've dreamed an impossible dream. When I was kid, I have no idea about being an honor student. The rankings, it doesn't make sense. I felt no remorse if I get zero scores in every test. All I care is fun, fun and fun. I was a bully, bullied and the referee. Everybody know this and there are few whose life have been on grades. Then one day, as if I woke up, my friends became my rival, well my enemies still remain but I lost everything. Found out I was a grammar nazzi, and confident about broken english. And everything is wrong, I've been robbed of fun.
When I stepped high school, everything was new and was an alien to me or rather I was alienated. I was criticized for everything, because everything is wrong about me. I wish I could wake up a genie in a bottle, and wish to undo everything I did wrong. Unfortunately, life won't work that way. If you give a damn about everything life did wrong to you, it will backfire. You will only lose more. I trusted this wisdom for more than six years. I cowered and I was only known by few people. You can only think that my high school year was boring, alone and lonely. But no, that is wrong. In my own perspective, there were benefits of staying alone. Atleast I can say, I have improved myself over the years. And the result is undeniably worth it because once people didn't believe in me but now they were relying on me. However I still didn't forgot everything, and there is this attitude in me that keeps them away, rather keeps them from socializing with me.
Totally, I've changed because of some people who helped me change. I was never on the same level with them and I know I'm too far away from their skills. Honestly, I only trusted my luck that is why I've survived a lot of exams, tests and become an honor student. I've achieved everything for a student who's hungry for grades yet I don't know what will happen next.
It amazed that, those people I believed who are superior to me failed at something. The College Entrance Exams. All my result for every entrance exam I've taken have been passed. There was a long story in between. The countable people I had was stolen again. Yet until now, I'm still dreaming of a genie in a bottle. And the next lesson I've learned is that, "life is give and take." Yoy have to balance what's good and what's not. If something good happens to you, later something can go bad. You have to be prepared. But at least, being admitted unexpectedly to the known university is an opportunity I might take. So I did, with lots of uncertainties and questions if this was a mistake. They could have my place instead but no. I want to graduate with latin honors here, and soon. I nailed this dream.
Hello, Azazello.
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