A little about me - 25 sept. 2020

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Dear Diary,

I just realised it might be a good idea to write what brought me here. 

I'm a 22 y/o trying to work on managing my anxiety, on accepting myself and on letting go of the past. I was always better at opening up to strangers rather than my friends - when I had any of those - so I thought I should give this app a try. Perheps even thinking things through when writing here will help.. we'll see how this goes. 

That's all so far.. sending love to anyone who bothered to read this.. thank you.

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Sabina
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ImmaDoIt.AcapellaSep 28, 2020

I'm here for the ride <3

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miztok2much101Sep 26, 2020

No need to feel bad about the long messages, as you can see I like them too. I used to do the same thing when I was with my friends back in other days. I figured out a way to get people from laughing at me or put me down. I found out that if you go along with people when they make fun of you they don't know what to do or say. Like if someone said I was weird I would say you got me, I am weird. Or if they said I was ugly as they often did I'd say yeah, That'ts why I don't look in mirrors anymore. It worked every time. They suddenly did'nt know what say after that. When you react like that to them that way they get confused because they want you to be upset so when it seems like you're not it confuses them and they back off because they know that what ever hurtfull thing they were going to say was not going to work. It backfired instead. I still do that from time to time It does'nt mean that what they said didn't hurt it just means that they didn't know it did. So people didn't make fun of me much after I did that. You just don't give them the satisfaction of thinking they hurt you. If they think they didn't they get frustrated and back off. Anyway, enjoy the rest of your day.😎

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SabinaSep 26, 2020

I'm glad to hear you are well. Music has always meant a lot to me, and listening to it is one of my favorite things to do. I get what you mean when you talk about others thinking you are weird. I feel the same and I used to embrace it when I was with my equally odd crazy friends, but I am not by far that confident these days. I am sure this will get better for you, I just hope it will be sooner rather than later. I believe that writing for yourself is an amazing thing to do and I'm trying to get into the habit of doing that too. And don't worry, I actually enjoy long messages, but I still feel bad for the lenght of mine.. I hope you have a good day.

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miztok2much101Sep 26, 2020

Hello. I'm doing okay with things here. Destress by listening to music. Its my favorite thing to do. It helps calm me down when I'm upset. ButI dont really have any friends. I have my husband but no friends. People dont understand me much and they think I am weird. So I figure well Then if they want to think like that then go ahead. I probably am weird at least a little bit. Im trying to get to a point where I dont let other peoples negative opinions dont bother me. Its not easy though. I have a cat also. Her name is Penny. She is so sweet. She follows me everywhere I go in the house. I have 3 dogs too. I know things get hard sometimes actually not just sometimes but most of the time. You know what I mean? Sometimes writing helps me too. I write poetry from time to time. Nothing great but I write it anyway. Okay, so now that I've practically written a book🙃 I will stop here. Take care and talk to you soon.🤓

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SabinaSep 26, 2020

I am from Romania and it is evening here but I had a decent day. I got to enjoy the rain and the company of my cats, and that makes most things better for me. I hope you had a good start to your day.

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SabinaSep 26, 2020

Thank you for your kind words. It feels nice to know someone gets you, even if I am sorry that yoy are going through all of that yourself.

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miztok2much101Sep 26, 2020

Hello, How are you doing this morning? I am from the good old USA. What about you?

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SweetySep 26, 2020

I just wonder you r from my country))) concerning what you wrote , that is the same to me I m more open to strangers than who I know... message me we could be friends

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miztok2much101Sep 25, 2020

It will take time but it will happen. Please feel free to comment or message me if you need or want to. If you are comfortable. If not then that's okay too. 🤗

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miztok2much101Sep 25, 2020

I bothered. Anxiety and depression are tricky things. I speak from experience as I am on meds for both. And self confidence is not an easy thing to have. It takes belief in yourself and and the sure knowledge that you are worth wile. And you are. I don't even need to know you to know that. You will begin to realize that.

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."

— Maya Angelou