September 23, 2020, Sandeep's Father

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Dear Diary,

Monday morning i woke and saw vijay's message. Sandeep's father has passed away. Its Sandeep, my cofounder, my business partner. I didn't know how to react. I messaged our clients, not to call him. How little did i think of it. As if that's the only thing that would bother him right now. For the next two days i handled things in office. As if sandeep is just on leave for a week and everything will be alright after that. 


Funeral was today, we all went from office. He has not spoken, not eaten anything since then. He dint have strength to stand today. I never saw him this week. Its a big thing. He'll not get over this loss very soon. Its been 21 years since my dad left us, i barely knew him anf i still miss him somtime.


But what is wrong with me. While i was there, i couldn't feel his pain. Have i gone complete cold hearted? I wanted to, but i couldn't feel it, i was checking things in my mobile, reading blogs to utilize the time away from office. 


He is my partner. How can i be so emotionless, i understand that we cannot do anything. And death is the honest reality. And we should not be attached. But i dont want to be emotionless... 



Honestly i dont feel like praying for who is gone... But i hope sandeep get well soon... And he makes peace with it... 


K
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ratzSep 24, 2020

Hmmm! I was cold hearted or thought ,was one too. When it has to react, it will. Don't test it on each events.

K

Hmm.. Maybe.... But i really think thede days, i am going a little cold hearted..

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ratzSep 23, 2020

Oh! I understand. Sometimes we just go to that void state when we should be feeling something. Don't be harsh on yourself. It's just the way our subconscious works i believe, trying to protect us from pain.

"Words are a lens to focus one's mind."

โ€” Ayn Rand