Dear Diary, today I spent most of the day with my dad. It was pretty good. I usually never know much to say around him. That is pretty normal for me with most people, but it always feels bad, because it is my dad. But today he didn't pressure me to answer any questions, so I felt a lot more comfortable. We were at a museum, which was mildly interesting and afterwards we went for some non-alcoholic drinks. He seems healthier than last time and that is probably the most important thing.
Afterwards I didn't go to the Bar with Belle, just as I wrote yesterday. I could have and still would have had about 2 hours at home for relaxing a bit. But I just didn't feel like it, social interactions exhaust me and spending the evening with drunk people sounded not like a good time right now.
I do feel really bad though. Finally there is this pretty girl who constantly wants to do things with me, pretty much what I always wanted, and then I refuse one of these opportunities. Am I an Idiot?
But this ambiguity if she likes me romantically or not discourages me. Especially since the answer is most likely no. A part of me thinks that it might be good, if she sees that I'm not always freely available.
We will see each other on sunday though, when we go to wildlife park with some of her friends. Maybe she will ask me tommorow to do something spontaneous too, who knows. I don't really know there all of this is leading, probably nowhere.