Dear Diary,
So am trying to find a way of relaxing my feelings.... I know it's odd that I crush so hard like as if I've just hit puberty..... Which is not the case.
So for the crush on my neighbour, at first I didn't really pay him my mind, though he looked dope, he takes care of himself.
He is tall, cute, his voice ain't really soft nor is it hard. But then sometime he came to buy something at the convenient store, for some reason my heart skipped a beat when I saw him, then I caught him staring at me.
So I guess that's what kind if ignited whatever I'm feeling....Later that day I met him when I was on my way home, we said hi to each other.
I don't see him much but I have to get over whatever this that I'm feeling.
I guess am just vdesperate to be loved, latching at false hope. It's not having low self esteem but I know this guy is not interested in me, otherwise he would stick around and evwn ask for my phone number.
I think am lacking the kind of male attention that I want, the one that I get I don't like.... I don't set my standards low because I don't want to settle for less....
I really need to get over this crush otherwise I'll keep thinking about him.....(huhhh)
This is just frustrating!