August 16, 2020

I just got out of a psychward...the first time I saw someone who reminded me of you..  

I keep asking sgt? He keeps saying nick

You never told me your first name.  I know he is not you because he keeps telling me he was never a marine.. 

But I told him his existence is amazing and I asked him when did you stop smoking camel crush as a joke.. it was just a joke... he said how did you know I used to smoke.  

Now I really am crazy and I belong here because im looking at a different person saying fuck. ..im inlove with a ghost ...nic keeps hearing me say it and its so weird because we are strangers and this really is a coincidence right? Sorry, um, I dont know how I got this truth bomb and she keeps calling me a bitch and I dont know why, I just think she is very pretty and cool...im just trying to be where I can see my sgt smile, Im not after her nick...I get it he's yours. Im not trying to take him from you...

Im just looking at my ghost my own memories from so many years ago. I'm trying to tell you I know mine is a marine and yours is a nurse and I'm just in a psychward trying to live in a reality where he found happiness and there's no target on his back

You keep telling me stick with the ugly Danny, I dont really remember him i had too many pills.  Danny was never his name just a reminder of my ghost.

My sgt noe

And theres more....