July 14, 2020

Dear Diary, I always feel numb. But I like it. That’s all I’ve really felt. It’s all I’ve been taught to feel. 

How do you hate someone you’ve been taught your whole life to love? 

Yes, i can love. 

I do love people. But it’s really hard not to use there weakness against them. The power feels so good. It’s the only way I can really be happy. 

Uh bye.