Scar's Dear Diary

What do I need? Honestly? I need to cry, to be held and listened to. To not be judged for my reactions, for my endless rambles. To grieve everything I've lost, so quick in their procession. I know some of them aren't gone but I can't go back to befor

I feel so guilty. For not being better already, for not being able to take care of others like they're used to. Most of all I'm guilty though because this is the most relived I've felt in years. I don't think they'll ever understand the pain they've

The world felt a little bit too big today. Mom left for the weekend on a whim, so me and T are left to take care of my sister. We're not a bad team, and it's not bad getting close but I want to be done with this. I need to leave. Of course I've got n

Life is a bit of a shit show at this point. I woke up today and I can tell my meds aren't working. I have the urge to go on a shopping spree and spend my money but I also know I have responsibilities at home. I'm trying not to go back down, I've only

Dear Diary, It was nice here. It was my only peace from home..but I’m leaving. I don’t know why. I just want to. I think I don’t like the feeling of peace.  Advice: Liars are everywhere & everyone. But most importantly The biggest lair is me. :) By

Dear Diary, I went back home. The police found my fake clues and actually thought I left London. I went back home bc I didn’t have enough money. I only brought 50 pounds. Well I’m not the best at planning. That’s more of a psychopaths job.   I got m

Dear Diary, Nobody has found me yet. It’s been 12 hours since I left. I’m right now in a café. With internet. Im wearing my brothers brown hat and grey sweats and my black sweater. I’m trying to pass for a boy so I don’t get raped. All my hair is ins

Dear Diary, I always feel numb. But I like it. That’s all I’ve really felt. It’s all I’ve been taught to feel.  How do you hate someone you’ve been taught your whole life to love?  Yes, i can love.  I do love people. But it’s really hard not to u

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Dear Diary, I’ve never understood why people jump up n down when they get good news. Or clap there hands. Like does that make the good news better? Like why?  Or when someone dies. Like don’t tell me. I get so annoyed. I just see that as attentio

Dear Diary, people say we lack remorse, empathy & guilt like it’s a bad thing. Why? Like I don’t feel guilt for what I do. I feel sorry for the people that feel guilty.

Dear diary, this is so dumb. One time a girl in my gr.8 science class told me i need to “express my feelings more” is she dumb? She is. Bc no one is smarter then me in class. Anyhow that’s not the point the point is. Even my teachers tell me that I n

Dear Diary, uh hey? I don’t really like to write. I’m more of a reading person..but I’ll try. Next year I’m going to high school. I’m asked what I’ll be most excited for..the library. I can’t wait for the library and to read. It’s better then the rea