July 14, 2020

Usually it's just small things, but since I've come into some money, I've splurged a bit. I grew up poor so my definition of a splurge might be different than some people's.

It started with a PlayStation 2. My dad had been saying how he would love to see my nephew J play the same games my sisters and I grew up on. So I bought a PS2, texted my ex asking for a game back, and bought two more games. The PS2 arrived a few days ago and my ex forgot to mail the game 🙄 but the other two games should arrive in about a week. (The games I'm referring to are Ape Escape, which my ex has; and Ape Escape 2 and Ape Escape: Pumped and Primed.)

Then I bought a full Nintendo Switch, used, for $100 over the retail price. I'm honestly pissed at how COVID19 and some stupid lawsuits have affected the production and sales of switches. Also the rude-ass person/people who created the app/website that crawled on websites and purchased all of the switches as they were put online. 

I've also bought some diecast model vehicles for J at a 1:24 size ratio. Two cars and a truck. Then I bought another car that looks almost exactly like one my dad used to have probably before I was born. 

I've bought some pokemon plushies, too. I found a Squirtle at Walmart and had to have it since I have a goal of collecting all my starters as plushies. I already had Piplup and Popplio. I bought Sobble and Galarian Ponyta from pokemon center. I bought a Skitty from Mystery Dungeon off of ebay. I bought a really expensive Pikachu plushie based off a costume from Ruby/Sapphire (the cute idol/pop star costume). 

I bought some shorts from amazon that have some nice pockets. 

I bought a USB-C to HDMI converter since my laptop doesn't have an HDMI port. 

And most recently, about 2 hours ago, I bought a stuffed giraffe, but it's not for me.

I haven't mentioned boys in a little while, but I've still been talking to DMcD. He told me on the 12th, I think, that his favorite animal is a giraffe. He said he used to have a couple of giraffe plushies, but left them behind when he moved at age 13. 

This made me sad to be honest. My heart would be broken if I had to move without my favorite plushies. I could do without all the pokemon plushies, but if I had to leave my Puppy behind? If I had to leave Yolo (technically not a plushie) behind? Or my blankie? I would be heartbroken.

It doesn't matter how old I am, I need my small comforts. 

Anyway, I asked DMcD for his address under the guise of seeing how far away we live from each other (not too far honestly). 

I bought the giraffe, put in his address and my payment method, checked the box for special gift wrap and added a note. I said something along the lines of, "Don't leave this one behind and give it plenty of cuddles for me. ❤"

Amazon says he should receive it on July 15th. I can't wait for his reaction. 

Reflecting on this post now, I realize that I haven't actually bought a lot of things. 

And honestly, I shouldn't feel bad about buying these things. I mean, I did just pay off a good chunk of debt. 

It's just kind of ingrained into me that if it's not essential, I'm wasting money. I grew up only allowed to buy the basics and occasionally something nice, but still cheap. 

Money can't buy happiness, but it can help make you pretend to be happy. 

Edit: Added pictures.