Dear Diary,
Man, I'm worse today than I am yesterday.
I feel so unease the whole day.
Like the days are just repeating.
The same routine, household chores, same people, activities, music, games, hobbies
I am badly bored in life
It makes me anxious when I can't find things I can heavily depend on my happiness
All of the things that makes me excited, amazed and happy before wasn't the same now.
I am left with nothing
I badly wanted someone to talk to me but
Maybe, I'm just a crybaby and my feelings isn't necessary at all.
Some has more serious problems that mine. They are more troubled than me. Yeah, this is my pattern of thinking. It's a saying a thing and then refuting or suppressing it
But, yeah... So .. but I think it isn't healthy to invalidate my own feelings anymore...
Yeah, I am mess when thinking about this. Sorry.
So thats all for today.
I fear tomorrow would be the same day, worse than today.
So what should I do tomorrow?