July 02, 2020

Dear Diary,

Man, I'm worse today than I am yesterday.

I feel so unease the whole day.

Like the days are just repeating.

The same routine, household chores, same people, activities, music, games, hobbies

I am badly bored in life

It makes me anxious when I can't find things I can heavily depend on my happiness

All of the things that makes me excited, amazed and happy before wasn't the same now.

I am left with nothing

I badly wanted someone to talk to me but

Maybe, I'm just a crybaby and my feelings isn't necessary at all.

Some has more serious problems that mine. They are more troubled than me. Yeah, this is my pattern of thinking. It's a saying a thing and then refuting or suppressing it

But, yeah... So .. but I think it isn't healthy to invalidate my own feelings anymore...

Yeah, I am mess when thinking about this. Sorry.

So thats all for today.

I fear tomorrow would be the same day, worse than today.

So what should I do tomorrow?