Dear Diary, i wanna die, all i want is to be dead. i cant do this life anymore. birhing is worth living for for me. there is just nothing. sure. i got friends, i was loved but now there is nothing, but tears and too deep pain. i want to die fr. i searched for some drugs to kill myself the last couple of days. im serious. i cant live this life anymore, i just cant. everything hurts and disapoints me. ir hurts. it hurts in ways noone could ever understand and i dont dont to explain it to you. i cant explain it to you because it simply kills me. it murders my mind. and all im left is my suicidal thoughts, thats it. i want to die and nothing could save me ever again, not even juli. i want to die and thats it, my life, leonie is done.