Dear Diary,
My hoarding is out of control again. I am out of control again.
I am back up to 225lbs, my house is a wreck, and my life is spiraling out of control completely!
I want to be dead. I have less than no idea why I am still here. I am a useless p.o.s. who cannot hold a job and cannot even fill out a job application properly.
I am so sick of not being able to finish anything I start. I have started writing multiple stories and can’t even finish one to the middle of it. I am a loser and a quitter.
I am beyond done with myself the way I am. I know that I need to change, but I have no idea where to begin. I hate feeling this way.
Bye for now.