Dear Diary,
With my kidney issues, I had to brave the world today and pick up groceries and needed goods. I find it still troubling how polarized the world is, and I am still curious to see how things settle after this COVID pandemic and state of emergency ends. I know that this virus as well as any cold or flu virus absolutely scares me with my condition. I could lose a kidney or my life. And as much as I have wanted to die...and contemplated death at times...I don't want to go anywhere near it. Life is to precious. And I found love =) I would have died if it wasn't for this stubborn crazy husband of mine. I got so sick...and I dislike doctors and people...and he dragged my ass to a doctor. Bilateral pneumonia, and stage 1 sepsis...a week in the hospital. I could never thank him enough for saving me =)
Tonight is back to the grind. It's my Monday night...I find that since we took this job I am able to focus less on work, and more on myself...my health, relationships, and mental well being. Although I miss my friends. I don't really see making friends here. Many acquaintances...but nothing really close.
Well...it's nap time. Lets hope that it's an uneventful rest.