May 26, 2020

 

Dear Diary,

With my kidney issues, I had to brave the world today and pick up groceries and needed goods.  I find it still troubling how polarized the world is, and I am still curious to see how things settle after this COVID pandemic and state of emergency ends.  I know that this virus as well as any cold or flu virus absolutely scares me with my condition.  I could lose a kidney or my life.  And as much as I have wanted to die...and contemplated death at times...I don't want to go anywhere near it.  Life is to precious.  And I found love =)  I would have died if it wasn't for this stubborn crazy husband of mine.  I got so sick...and I dislike doctors and people...and he dragged my ass to a doctor.  Bilateral pneumonia, and stage 1 sepsis...a week in the hospital.  I could never thank him enough for saving me =)


Tonight is back to the grind.  It's my Monday night...I find that since we took this job I am able to focus less on work, and more on myself...my health, relationships, and mental well being.  Although I miss my friends.  I don't really see making friends here.  Many acquaintances...but nothing really close.


Well...it's nap time.  Lets hope that it's an uneventful rest.

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