April 10, 2020

 

Dear Diary,

I saw him when i was 11 at ilbc.

My my heart was beating very fast. I have never felt like that. I was so embarrassed 2 look at his eyes.

I crushed  him for three years or four years but he  doesn't like me back . 
I prayed every night to dream about him . U know waht , sometimes ,he seems like he like me . Once he get very closer to my seat . And I said what are you doing ? He said I m going to take a shot on the table . He always talk to me . He always look at me . We talked everyday even we were not in the same class . We spend hours and hours by talking with him in my free time . I really like him .but after one or two months . He didn't talk to me . He didn't even come to my class . I waited for him but he didn't.  He just waved me when he saw me and smiled . I thought he is into someone that isn't me . Later after a week or two I found him talking with his friends . He didn't see me . His voice was totally changed . I dont really like that . Was that a reason that he ddint talk me back . I had no idea . After that class , i changed my mind not to like him , not to look at him and clear all his memories in my mind . But I cant . I really cant . I really dont know what is happening . I forced my mind to think about education and mu future.  GOD will give me someone I need and someone who will always care me for my life , I forced my mind,  it doesn't work . 
I dont know what is happening to me 
His name '' June Min Htet''
My name '' Rachel''
If u r using this app and read my diary , u will know my feelings that I had kept for years.......... to june

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