March 30, 2020

Its harder and harder to be that person who is always okay. that person who support and helps other, listen to their problem but almost always are left alone when feels low. They say they will be there for me, but when i need someone to tell me that everything will be okay you will get through this there is no one. Always im the one to helps myself whatever i need. At the end of the day i have just myself, but that's fine im used to it. Whats is not fine that some people say that i don't understand whats is to brush in tears when you are sad. you don't know me, if i don't cry in public that doesn't mean i don't cry... I cry so freaking hard when no one sees me, but when i go out of my room im alright, i helping everyone but i feel so broken sometimes, but if i don't show it people around me thinks im fine, even if i feel bad i still try to help to bright someone else mood. But when people around are in bad mood they doesn't care if im happy or not. Sometimes feeling like some place where you can say everything bad or sad and then leave that place feeling better.