March 09, 2020

Dear Diary,

I've been thinking lately. You know that feeling when your in love. Heart racing and your like on closed 9 floating. Well... It's been a year and I haven't felt that since. 

I feel like because of so many heart breaks I killed some part of me and now I can't really feel. I didn't like always being in pain but the end of a relationship and wished so many times for it to stop and not feel that way anymore. It did but I don't really feel anything. I havent liked anyone since. I tried forcing myself to like someone thinking maybe it'll come back but it didn't. 

Now I feel like i won't ever like anyone or feel something as strong as I did for someone like before again. I really do feel like I'll end up alone in life.