Dear Diary,I'm pissed my husband wakes up and starts right in on me about sex so I said maybe you should find someone else and he said maybe I should then maybe I'll get some sex and I grabbed my vape and my blanket and came in here in the living room ALL he does is bitch about me and sex It could be 2 days since weve done it and he starts bitching again i like just being held and kissed but no that has to end up in sex and we do the same things he goes down on me then of course i have to go down on him and i dont mind but what gets me is when it won't get hard sometimes I'd like for him to just get a hard on natural then fuck the shit out of me i dont like when I have to try getting him hard it makes me feel like it's me why he cant get one and that turns me off or he will continuously watch porn he says it's so he can get hard for me yea okay I'm stupid......i get sick of having to have porn on i should be able to get him in the mood and he should be able to get hard by looking at me if he loves me anyways one time he left me when I went to rehab tell me how did he fuck her????cause only on occasions do we have good hard sex hes 54 men and women what should i do cause it ain't just me its him to when we argue help me out here please