I've been doing better. Today I talked to ------ about alternatives and ways to cope with suicidal thoughts. We weren't talking about me though, we were talking about him. I didn't really know what to say at first, but I took the more caring and cautious path compared to ---. I think his ideas may have not been the best. For the best, but not said in the best way. Telling someone they need to "just figure it out" isn't the best to say. You should also tell them it's okay to ask for help, and that you care about them etc. It's obvious that he cares about him though.
About a week ago ------ took some pills and ended up spending the night in the hospital. I didn't know what to say then either. Me and ---- were talking about 13 reasons why on our walk home today. I think it's unfair and straight up wrong to blame your suicide on anyone other than yourself. Maybe they made your life hell, but in the end it's your choice. Things get better I guess. I'm still not deciding, right now I'm trying to live happily and I said Id wait until after the concert anyways. That gives me 7 months.
On another note, I accidentally deleted my kid in the sims 4. I feel really guilty about it, even if it's just a game. I hate that their icon is still in the family tree. Maybe I can re-adopt them but I don't know. I really like my sims household.
I think I could be a therapist when Im older, I could help people with my own problem out. Maybe Id even understand myself more.
I don't want ---- to switch schools. Id miss her.
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