January 18, 2020

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Dear Diary,

So, I'm back... Trying this app out again. Seeing if I can fall in love with it... We'll see!! Anyway, so I had a birthday a few days ago on the 13th. I am officially in my 40s now!! 42 will be my number this year. 

I didn't used to mind my age until I lost my bf a year and a half ago to heroin addiction. The thought of being single all of a sudden in my 40s is just depressing!! 

But, I did have almost 2 months of sobriety under my belt until just recently. I was really proud of that, actually!! But just a few days ago, an old drug friend of mine lost her place to live and showed up on my doorstep. Since then, there's been a lot of stuff going on.

Well, I'll write more later. It's late and I'm tired tonight. 

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NettaJan 19, 2020

Hello, my parents are addicts, my father 20 years sober, my mother, well we’re not sure if she’s sober or not, my brother is an addict and has been sober for almost ten years. I, myself, went through my own period of drug addiction. I have been sober from my drug of choice (and i say it that way because i am a medical marijuana patient and do not want to seem hypocritical) for 2 years. I want to say it’s amazing you were able to stay sober for a year!!! And you can do it again! I know it is hard to leave someone (especially a friend) out in the cold. And with a year of sobriety under your belt i’m sure you felt strong enough to weather her until she got on her feet. But i don’t think you should have ever let her in. Now, i’m not saying slam the door in her face. Absolutely do your best to help her, but never risk your own self for others. As a child of addicts, as a sibling of an addict, and an addict myself. You MUST put yourself first, everytime for everything. Those still connected to that world are always gonna try to drag you back in because misery loves company. It’s time for you to have a clean, healthy, successful life in which i’m sure you deserve. Don’t let that be taken away. I wish you a very happy birthday! I wish your friend the best and hope she gets well soon.

"I can shake off everything as I write; my sorrows disappear, my courage is reborn."

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