Hi, so i don't usually write this way. i mean i write as if i am writing to a future me.I think i am going to stick with that, so
today i wrote to you at the Starbucks because i didn't go to school. I had a terrible day yesterday, i had a panic attack in the school bathroom, i had two people ask me if i was okay and so i lied. but i called my friend and she calmed me down. I didn't go to class i dont know why. I am starting to feel numb and i know what is coming. It already has started, i was depressed all today then a hour ago magically better to better. FUCK I cant have this, i have work tomorrow and i am going. but my mood is elevating and that is so bad. I went through the self harm and the depression the anxiety, and panic attacks. My high is coming and i am scared it think, tho i want it that bad that feels better tho not all the time.
So to sum up, i am a bipolar whore ( maybe wannabe- what ever you think) who is a big nerd because i love biology.