LoveHerHateMe's Dear Diary

Trigger Warning for anyone who struggles with thoughts of suicide…… I was on my way to work today after my lunch break and while I was driving I had a sudden thought, “I should kms.” I would never do that and the reason I would never do that is becau

Dear Diary, For some reason, I can never just feel satisfied. My job is great, I have the most awesome boss ever. My home life is going ok, I have the most supportive boyfriend ever, he’s amazing. It’s not him that I’m not satisfied with because

Dear Diary, Some days it just gets hard to fight off all the negativity my mind creates for itself. I’m trying really hard not to let my mind get to me. I’m filled with rage, sadness, and resentment today. Trying to keep positive is exhausting.

Dear Diary, Things are going decent. It’s just my thoughts. I’m stuck in a toxic think pattern right now and while I enjoy my time and the things I do, I still have this feeling of wishing I would just disappear. I’m bipolar 2 and I’m in a mixed

Dear Diary, I hate myself. For once I just wanna feel pretty and like I’m decent to look at without trying so fucking hard. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

Dear Diary, It’s been awhile. I’ve been in therapy for BPD and Bipolar disorder. Not surprising, my mom had both. Kids went to Billings for  9 weeks. Im glad they went. It would have been a hard time for me if they stayed. My mom died and im not

Dear Diary, It has been a minute since writing. I feel all sorts of ways, so much has happened. I have so much anxiety. I started therapy because I genuinely want to fix my shitty inner self, but I don’t know what I want. Relationship wise, I hav

I really have no idea why I have been feeling so unfulfilled with my life lately. Nothing feels like it ever makes my soul feel content. Nothing has been satisfying to me on the inside and I just feel like some part of me is missing. I wish I knew wh

Dear Diary, In all honesty I am in the worst mental shape of my life. I have never felt so lost or so fucked up than I have been for these past few months. I am so tired of pretending and telling people how “ok” I am. I have so much resentment in

Dear Diary, I have been stuck. I feel like I am never going to get over it. I feel like my bf is going to forever be stuck on his ex, but I feel stuck in the relationship because we have a house that I bought in my name because I planned for us

I've never wanted to run away from my life more than I have recently. My husband, my animals... my loneliness. I have so many beings at my home yet I feel so lonely. I have my dogs, my cats, my husband, my mother-in-law & brother-in-law, and even my

Dear Diary, So first of all i am going to go back to dear diary, these "letter" are not like my other, first letters, so.  I am worried for myself. More like scared.  i am at my new job and i am really liking it. And i believe i am good at

Dear Chloe,   i haven't writen in a few days, i just been so busy with work. I have been working almost everyday, today is  my first day of this week. It ok tho i like working at blue ruby. I like the people and selling the jewelry. So i am ok wo

Dear Chloe,  Today was good. Well tonight was good. I went to my company's Christmas party, I was so nervous to go but my therapist said that i need to put myself in uncomfortable social situations. Which is what i did tonight. By the way its 12:

Dear Chloe, hey today i don't know, work was good and i like what i am doing. But me, there is something wrong with me. I know it my mental illness, but...... So my mood changes, up then down the up then down down down then high high high. It

Dear Diary, Hi, so i don't usually write this way. i mean i write as if i am writing to a future me.I think i am going to stick with that, so Dear Chloe, today i wrote to you at the Starbucks because i didn't go to school. I had a terrible day y