November 06, 2019


Dear Diary,

I hope that one day I get used to working, getting up early everyday and be happy to work for my company. I hope that I have enough responsibilities to satisfy me, and I hope that I feel like I'm worthy. 

Because right now, I feel like shit. Everyday waking up at 6am and having to go to bed at 11am feels like torture. No matter what I do, what time I sleep at, I dont get enugh sleep. 

If there is a god and he hears this, "Please send help."

Ps: Im wondering if sth is wrong cause my boyfriend usually sleeps at 1 or 2 am and is able to wake up easily in the morning. Should I see a doctor? Idk.