But she's so broke; she's so incredible,
wonder if she'll ever know, yeah, whoa
She lays in her bedroom, and she cries, yeah, she cries, whoa oh
And she feels depressed as tears fall from her eyes,
from her eyes, whoa oh
All she wants is love, but she never finds it in herself, whoa oh
She just feels broken, I can tell that she's hopeless,
looking for help, whoa oh
And there she goes, she's so beautiful,
she's so beautiful, whoa oh
But she's so broke; she's so incredible,
I wonder if she'll ever know, whoa oh
She gets attention from every direction, but she doesn't care, whoa oh
She prays for protection, scared of rejection; is anyone there?
Whoa oh
She used to laugh, but now she's crying,
sick of the pain, whoa oh
She puts on her mask, pretends and she acts like she's okay, whoa oh
And there she goes, she's so beautiful,
she's so beautiful, whoa oh
But she's so broke; she's so incredible,
I wonder if she'll ever know, whoa oh
There she goes again, puttin' on that fake act
Hard to see the real her when she got that fake mask
Daddy left and he ain't never came back
Tears her apart, but she would never say that
She wants love, but don't know where to get it from
It's hard to learn respect from a man that never gave her none
So she cries as she yellin' in the mirror
"Is anybody out there? Does anybody care?"
And people think they know her,
but they don't really have a clue
Workin' three jobs, yeah, she's doin' what she have to do
Getting stressed out, and boys say she beautiful,
but that don't really mean a thing if she don't believe it though
Insecurites startina' take over
She lookin' for warmness, but keeps gettin' colder
Yeah, I know you're trippin' on your looks and such,
but quit lookin' to the world and start lookin' up
God made you beautiful
And there she goes, she's so beautiful, she's so beautiful, whoa oh
But she's so broke; she's so incredible, I wonder if she'll ever know, whoa oh
---NF BEAUTIFUL
I was told today when i got home from running my errands that i looked alot better today... I wasnt shaking... I wasnt breathing hard or slipping breaths... My face lookss more relaxed... Funny thing... I felt better but im still having a small silent quit battle inside about everything but i was grateful that it hadnt escalated.... Yet... I am having a better day... Ill call it another victory because i need more of those in my life...
I dont see what everyone else sees when i look in the mirror... What i see is what i see inside of me... And what i see on the inside f me isnt pretty... What i see is all the mistakes ive made... I see the disappointment ive beclme to everyone... I have my moments where i see something beautiful.. Absoultly stunning... And worthy of something wonderful... Andni savor those moments... Andni cann see in my pictures when i felt truly beautiful outside an in... But it seems i take less an less and less of those pictures now... I feel like the pieces i spent the last almost 2 years glueing back togther ... Ripping them back out... No let me rephrase that... Taking a sledge hammer and smashing them out... And most of it is all my fault... My descisions... My actions... My lies... My lack of respect for the people around me... My lack of respect for myself...
And it hurts...it hurts that i cant look at myself in the mirror an call myself beautiful without calling myself a lier... It hurts that i try an tell myself im strong enough and i just shake my head...
I strive for the day that i can look at me.. And smile... And not even have to say it because i know...
I know ill always be broken... But one day ill see the beauty thru the broken pieces...