September 26, 2019

So I've got both my ear buds in... Music blaring...  I've been talking to this old friend from high school... And it's put me n a way better mood...  There's moments where I wasn't trying to hide it from Justin but I didn't wanna sit right front of him an respond...  I felt bad... It hurts...  I did enjoy myself...  I feel like total shit that I enjoyed myself...  But at the same time what am I supposed to do...  Sit around an wait for the inevitable to happen... Knowing his done his been done...  And reminds me of how e will never be more then just friends... My interest in another guy is tearing me in half because I feel guilty because I still have feelings for him an it hurts that it's only one way...  So I'm moving on??... I mean we are just talking...  Have a date set...  But that's in the right direction to get over this right?...  I feel guilty because I'm enjoying flirting with another guy...  An I have no reason to...  I'm single...  No strings..  We arnt even friends ith benefits anymore...

So why do I feel guilty