September 07, 2019
Dear Diary, Yeah.... Felt like scribbling my thoughts out after a long time...
I don't even remember the last time I wrote anyways so there has been many things happening with me ( I am God's favorite I guess 😅 )
Learning new things... I mean I always used to wonder how people are so great in there work n kill it every time they do and then be it in any technology... Now I realize all u need is little self confidence and little faith and a positive attitude and will to do it! Yeah the bad part is I get nervous when I'm excited to do but then when I'm calm I feel I can do better than rest! And I realized one fact that everyone struggles and when they start new there are a learner! So I guess some positive things happening after switching the job!
As a person I don't know y I am such an emotional fool, why do small small things even matters I mean why I don't have that practical look for life, hamesha dil see sochna and I mean sab me liye sochna I mean I don't know why sometimes some people out of no where become so damn important to me 😔 I guess that's ME stupid af! Sometimes I have these bad days I mean suddenly I feel so lost, alone and negative I mean I don't know why I always end up in this situations! N worst is I have no one to tell 😔 maybe when I try to I find those trusted ones least interested or BUSY! Nevermind.
Today was once such day I was feeling too and then I was put in the situation where I could have said no and just be firm and said IDC n stuff but again me being an emotional fool af! Said I'll do if that gives someone happiness! Trust me for many times I thought of giving up but I didn't I said common just trust urself u can! Don't let someone's stupid words make u a person that u not! It worked I trusted myself someone else trusted me and I was able to! I understood aaj one thing "aagar pani me giroge tho tharna khudse sikh loge" true!!
For now I just wish to have calm in my mind and just forget some of the things.... sometimes I wish it would have been so great if we had some options to delete few unwanted things n thoughts from our mind! Let's hope at least I have a ☮️ Sunday tommorow!
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