September 06, 2019

Dear Diary, another night barely any sleep. I used to wake up n cry missing my cat of 15 years who passed away. Then I would wake up n cry because my boyfriend of almost 20 years left me. Just when I think I will b able to sleep night n have a good morning, my mother passes away. So now its tears every morning missing her. Or it's all of them. Soon my brother will probably b going to prison n he owes money to some people so I worry about what's going to happen to him n if I'll ever see him again. 

I try to live the power of attraction. But it's so hard to find a positive to hold onto feeling this all the time.