Dear Hugh,
I thank the Lord that I got to be close to you. It's something I didn't expect when I met you during my first day at work. As I come to know you more, I realized that I was slowly falling for you. I didn't expect that I'll get attached to you in just a span of few months. It felt like something was missing whenever you're not around. I'm so used to having you around that I feel sad whenever I don't get to see you in the office. I may not be vocal with this but I hope that you know and you can feel that you're important to me. I love you. I just don't know if it's romantic or not. I consider you as my best friend at work. I feel comfotable sharing my stories and secrets with you. I trust you with every fiber of my being. With you, I can just be me. I'm not afraid to show you who I really am. I'm happy whenever I'm with you. I always wish to spend more time with you. It is with this reason as well that I'm having a dilemma right now. I know that you're aware that I'm having a hard time at work because of some people around us who abuse their position/authority toward us. I still don't want to leave this job but because of what's currently happening, I'm afraid that I have to leave sooner than later. I know it's wrong but you and our other friends at work are my main reason as to why I still want to hold on and stay at my current job. You guys are my precious treasure, my support group, the ones keeping me sane whenever I'm stressed at work. We've only known each other for eight months but to me, it felt like I've known you for a long time. I can't bear the thought of leaving you, of not seeing you almost every day. I'll definitely miss you, our lunch dates, coffee breaks, food trips, and all the stories in between that we tell each other should I decide to leave. I don't know if my heart will be able to withstand the longing that I'll have to go through if the day that I dread will come.
My mind can't think straight right now. I feel like there's chaos inside me. I can't function well. I pray that God will help me and tell me what to do. I don't want to lose you. I can't just let you go yet. 😭 That's a heartbreak waiting to happen. 💔