July 30, 2019

Dear Diary, Overwhelmed with everything that's happened this past year, worst year of life, no joke, I don't understand how or why I let things get this bad! 

How I allowed him to turn me into this unknown person I am today, I need to get back to me and I don't know how or even where to begin. Sometimes I think to myself why didn't I leave sooner? How could I have forgiven his abuse and betrayal along with thousands of lies a week, I must be stupid or something because I knew he was no good but I still stayed , maybe because when I give my heart and soul to somebody you don't just ever walk away without giving it all you've got, or because I'm so forging and hopeful I have alot of faith in people and believe they can change although in this case change wasn't ever going to happen. I'm lost and need a miracle to help get me back up! 

©Kha0tiik❥