Dear Diary,
today I used make-up for the first time and wore clothes that I like. I constantly made spontaneous decisions that i'm sure I'll come to regret. (I did)
After some back-aching labor and having a meal with my family I went to bed but I started suddenly feeling exposed, my throat parch and the familiar sense of wanting to vomit rises up- and feelings of woe and horror without context started making me feel heavy and cry with fear that I do not know of.
Today is a confusing and sad day.
With love,
Dann