July 09, 2019

Dear Diary, 

today I used make-up for the first time and wore clothes that I like. I constantly made spontaneous decisions that i'm sure I'll come to regret. (I did)

After some back-aching labor and having a meal with my family I went to bed but I started suddenly feeling exposed, my throat parch and the familiar sense of wanting to vomit rises up- and feelings of woe and horror without context started making me feel heavy and cry with fear that I do not know of. 

Today is a confusing and sad day.

With love,

Dann