July 02, 2019

Nowadays, i am residing on the peripheral border of the black hole of depression, a slight push from behind being just sufficient to bury me wholly into that dark black hole. I am really feeling useless right now , able to live up to the expectations of nobody. I am just a piece of shitty mess right now. Having faith upon God with the hope that he will alleviate all my sufferings and forgive all sins of mine , is the only thing to which I have been resorting to these days. Rest is all bleak. Nothing seems to be of any interest to me. All useless, worthless just like me. Life doesnot enamour to me any longer. Living it feels like being burden to all of my associates. It feels as if hadnot i have been there on earth, life would have been much easier for all the people related to me. Hope has died but faith is still alive. Nothing is going to help. I know . . . .