July 02, 2019

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Dear diary,
Nowadays, i am residing on the peripheral border of the black hole of depression, a slight push from behind being just sufficient to bury me wholly into that dark black hole. I am really feeling useless right now , able to live up to the expectations of nobody. I am just a piece of shitty mess right now. Having faith upon God with the hope that he will alleviate all my sufferings and forgive all sins of mine , is the only thing to which I have been resorting to these days. Rest is all bleak. Nothing seems to be of any interest to me. All useless, worthless just like me. Life doesnot enamour to me any longer. Living it feels like being burden to all of my associates. It feels as if hadnot i have been there on earth, life would have been much easier for all the people related to me. Hope has died but faith is still alive. Nothing is going to help. I know . . . .
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Cleopatra♥️✓
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Cleopatra♥️Jul 3, 2019

Thanks both of you

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BubbaJul 2, 2019

Im sort of in your boots but I still am pushing to have hope that I can either move past my wrong doing or maybe just maybe fix them. Ive always been a good, nice, caring and motivated person until recently. When I've been mean, hurtful, unmotivated and scared. I haven't changed as a person, something just went wrong and I need to find my way back to the loving and caring person I was. Idk if you went through and change but even if you didn't. You should strive to things, make goals and try to have hope because people have fallen way further then us and come back way stronger. We may be suffering but it's only so that we can grow.

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ExodusJul 2, 2019

The answer is in your entry. You and only you have the choice to stop having expectations. You can either chose to be happy or depressed.. Do what feeds your soul.

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